In a world teetering on the brink of despair, where the echoes of nihilism seem to drown out every glimmer of hope, comes an album that dares to confront the void. This musical journey is a profound meditation on the very essence of Christianity in the face of such overwhelming darkness. It is an honest and vulnerable exploration of my own path as a Christian, grappling with the disquieting shadows that lurk within sacred texts, alongside the radiant, enduring light.

From the depths of "ex nihilo" – out of nothing – emerges a narrative of spiritual development, charting a course from the quiet introspection of Virginia to the vast expanse of Texas, and beyond. This is not merely a geographical passage, but an internal odyssey, a testament to the ongoing process of individuation. Drawing inspiration from the profound insights of Russian authors, the evocative power of their musicians, and the stark beauty of their cinema, interwoven with the rich tapestry of Orthodoxy, this album delves into the uncomfortable truths and transcendent beauty of faith when all hope feels lost. It is a testament to finding spiritual grounding and growth even when confronted with the most challenging questions of existence. Christian Nihilism is the idea that while joy and contentment in God might be ideal, they might never be experienced on this side of eternity. It is embracing the chaos while trusting that God will make all things work together for our good, even if the good isn’t always seen.